(Note: This has been re-edited on August 24)
It’s been more than 3 years since I wrote my first post here in Seeking Solstice.
I’ve been reflecting for awhile on why we decide to change blog providers. The main reason is probably like in all things technology, we tend to gravitate to the newer, faster, and seemingly better blog provider out there. Another possible reason linked to that is that we’ve also grown out of a created identity associated with that blog. I mean, can anyone tell me they still write the same blog they had since high school?
Seeking Solstice was a time when I needed to find my own writing voice in college. I was running for an editorial position in the school newspaper and fairly adjusted myself into the campus culture. Most of my org friends were writers, and they were also sustaining their own blogs as well. Orals and paper/article deadlines were the center of my problems. Allowance was used in overpriced coffee shops and I had a social life (well, sort of). I lived inside the campus dorm which was both a blessing and a curse (I still do not know my way around Manila).
Now, I’m working in one of the biggest fast-food industries in a department outside my comfort zone. Despite of this, there is still inspiration and determination, but there are days where it’s even difficult to send an email or take initiative. I am still confused in what I want to eventually do in the long-run.
Admittedly, it’s also been tough to find the time and motivation to sit down and write like before. Scattered thoughts about career or having a social life again, have been left unfinished in the drafts section. I leave it for another day and when I come back, the momentum has gone. The recent posts have elicited self-wtfs with its broken language and meaning. It also feels unnatural and forced. And honestly, I’ve been trying to remember the reason why I chose the name in the first place.
I simply feel lost in this space. And another thing I realized: twentysomethings, it’s a chapter of it’s own. I am not the same person as I was when I created this blog.
So with that, I bid adieu to the small group of viewers (random or not) that have somehow found the time to visit Seeking Solstice once in awhile. Thank you for being there. I’d always remember this blog for being an outlet to write outside Guidon duties, heartbreak, and the occasional homesick and feeling lost fresh grad posts.
Now signing off.
And now writing here.